Little thoughts

It is officially starting to consume me, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, I know it'll go away but it hurts so badly right now. My tummy flips, and all I can do is curl up in bed with tears rolling down. This hurts. I will be okay but right now I just have to feel the pain, I have to be hurt again on the same spot, repeatedly, to look at his pictures, his texts, and his tweets, I have to feel the pain until I don't feel it anymore. And only then it will stop hurting, but I know it will never really go away either. It will just end up as another scar.