The worst part about an internship that involves grades is your incapability to accept and take in your stride that you are actually really SICK + UNWELL + DYING (Ok, probably exaggerated the last point). My temperature is headed towards the finishing line of a 39 degrees and while my body feels like it would crumble at a whiff of wind, my unwillingness to accept that I should be resting proves to be my detriment. I cannot accept that I have to be absent at work because the school probably instilled the concept that if you take a medical leave, you'll not be able to get an A for your IPP because it's your duty to ensure that you are well and healthy.
Reasons why I fell ill:
1) I am sure as hell actually, that it was the cheese roll I ate from MBS. It tasted expired and I had to take eating half of it to realize that I should throw it away LOL. Maybe it was because it cost me $2.50 for a god dammed small piece.
2) The volcano ramen from Aijisen proved too much for me, I couldn't stand the spicyness (?) Ok that is IMPOSSIBLE, I've definitely tasted spicier, UNLESS, it was food poisoning.
3) You'd probably notice that I haven't been myself, the nonchalent behavior, the sudden swing of emotions, you know they always say how you feel does affect how your body is as well.
There you have it, but I'd DEFINITELY bet my last penny on Option 1. I may be broken, but I sure as hell would not let it break me. (I wonder if it makes sense?)
I'm like a total lifeless zombie, at times I do wish, I was never borned into this world; now I understand how Amanda Bynes feel, except that she's in this state with a hell load of moolah. Lol.
Xx
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