Fact about me

I've always been wanting to talk about this, openly and express it on my blog. However, I do have considerations on whether it is right to have my heart bared in the open for everyone else to know. Recently though, more people have been forth-coming about what a person I am and they shared it with me, and the thing here is all their thoughts are the same... So I thought I'd just share this fact about me.

It is not a news flash any longer that I hang out with guys, I do not have any girl friends. Up till now, I'd consider having only 2 girl friends. So then people I text, talk, hang out with are normally all guys.

I'm the kind of girl that could text you every single day, (obviously only because I really like you), and I could be at your beck and call for that period of time. I would be sad and cry when you don't reply, and I'd be over the moon at every text you give. But... the bad habit I have is simply leaving without even telling you. 

Whenever I say things like "I'm not gonna friend you, don't talk to me anymore, BYE" or like "I decided not to talk to you anymore from today onwards, so bye for good"...........I actually still do care and I only do that when I really like you so much (I know it's damn weird). 

When I wake up and it just snapped my mind that you probably don't like me as much as I would, to you, then I will walk away. And I walk away almost so quietly that most of the time they only realize after a month later. I don't know, I hate this about myself because especially when I am to leave someone, the process I put myself through is really stupid, I really break myself down to the lowest...and cry and hurt and whatever. 

But yes, fact about me: I always have the habit of leaving someone without saying goodbye or even explaining why, I simply ASSUME the worst and leave.

I'm sorry for everyone that I did this to, :(

Now I'm leaving someone again, don't ask me why, I am assuming he's gonna be happier without me.