I Doubt I Can Ever Get Over Someone

I have finally came to a conclusion that I can't quite ever get over someone that I have fell for. It's the moments where you tell yourself “I have definitely gotten over the way he made me feel, even if I bump into him again, it will just be a collision between two familiar strangers” But then you forgot that the only reason why you felt that way was because you haven't seen him in a while. 

There were so many of such moments that I have experienced and I truly believe that once you've fell for someone, you never quite "unfall" for them. I strongly believed that I have gotten over "K", being a dickhead asshole that he was, and how he cowered even in rejecting me when he chose to lead me on instead. He was mean to me in every single possible way and I could say that he was one of the few guys that made me lose self-worth, yet at that point of adrenalined love ride, I gave in to any and every demand he ever made. So when it all ended I was lucky... I never needed to face him for a good 3 months.

But then I saw him again last week, I had to face him. And as much as my guts were telling me that I hated him and that I was disgusted at his presence, my heart begged to differ. In the instance that his eyes met mine, I realized that what I felt for him was still very much there. He could still make me go weak at my knees. 

So besides "K", of course there were so many other guys I've met along the way and my heart seemed to die along the way. 

Therefore I conclude that I've never quite unloved anyone before and the way they made me feel somehow still runs through my veins even up till now. And I wonder if anyone else out there ever feels the same?