It's really nice to be back blogging, you can never imagine how much I long to get my hands on blow kisses to chloe you know you know? I miss blogging... even though there were short updates, there wasn't time to have a proper post, my sincere apologies to all of you out there. Okay, let's start because I have so many things... so many things to talk about..
Let me rewind back to last week, where there was National Day celebrations in School, it wasn't as fascinating as the previous year but it was indeed marvellous. There was a class BBQ after that, I went rather late as I went to catch the movie 'UP'. Ratings? 5/5. Definitely a show worth to watch, it was hilarious and both the old and young were laughing their way through the show. It's 3D effect was something worth commenting on definitely. Well, BBQ went well for the rest I guess, and it was great for me. You know I know ^^v
I went many many places over the days and the most recent once was a trip to cineleisure to use computer, ha ha. That's like retarded. Mine broke down, both laptop and computer, that is very sad. Okay, but everything is fine now... After using the internet, I saw this toy machine thing and I spent over 200 bucks... I got little toys, but it was worth the fun. Hehehe, and there was this super hot and cute guy. I was about to melt when I see him, HA HA. His smile, irreplaceable. And, I will never replace him, X. He is forever going to be in my heart, my forever love. Ha ha.
School started yesterday... it was mundane... nothing special, it was simply boring... Same goes for today, school doesn't seem to be as fun as it used to be anymore. Why? I wonder why... where has all those motivations went to? Where did those "School is fun" thinking went to? I miss those times when I was fully geared for school... for now, there is nothing left to look forward to, nothing to look for, nothing to do for, N O T H I N G.
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'Guys and girls'
Guys and girls... are actually the same. We often say : All guys are the same, all are jerks. And you can hear guys saying : All girls are the same, over emotional and heartless. So who is the one being heartless, being jerks here? Are they the girls or the guys? It's funny but both are. I may always be having my points to make sure the boys are at fault, I believe both guys and girls are jerks. Definitely, there a few who aren't. And those few are hard to come by. Girls cry, often we let out emotions out, we don't keep them, we have actions, we have feelings, and we're often taken control by our emotions. Boys do cry too, and in actual fact I believe they cry more than girls do. They just wanna hide their tears, cry alone hurt alone. Boys just have a huge ego. And actually too egoistic. I believe they do put emotions into love too. But there is one ultimate difference between girls and boys... To boys, love is but another game. Yet to girls, Love is everything, love is a chance in life. Unfortunately, opposites attract so you'll always see both parties end up in tears whether sad or happy.
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It's okay if I have no friends, because being alone is good. I can't be together with anyone if I want to shut up. I am like this, I know I don't have a good attitude, but at least I know it's better than of you who dislikes me. At least I know when's the time to joke and when not to. At least I know when to care, but do you all know? I can bet you guys don't... You all are never serious, if I were to voice my unhappiness to you all, would it change a thing? No it wouldn't. So it's a waste of time. I am not one who would swallow every bit of misery and torture without saying anything. I speak my mind whether you like it or not because this is me. And if you can't accept me, just fucking get lost. Because I wouldn't need you either. Definitely, before getting lost, Think : Is your attitude better than mine?
Okay, for all the un emotional beings, you can stop here for my post. Hehehehe. Because below will be some emotional things to me, if you wanna read, go on.... If not, can stop here already yes. I'll blog again for you all soon. X.
What's wrong with you and what's wrong with me, most importantly, what's wrong with us? I know you know I hate to feel this way. And I fucking can't do anything about it. I feel so useless. How can I juggle both at a time? I can't, and precisely because I can't then I have to let go. But do you think I'll let you go easily? Well no. Now it seems to me you're running, and like you're walking. But does that matter? No. It doesn't matter anymore. Because all I ever know is that you're leaving me. Why did I let myself fall into such a hole? When now you don't even care about me anymore? Why? There are certain times I cry, I bleed, and I break down. And I used to run back to you and you'll always heal me regardless. How about now? Are you still here? Are you still with me? Maybe you are but your heart? It's with her isn't it? I can't help but feel this way... and I never liked such feelings. But because I love you. And now you're going to leave... well it doesn't matter anymore... and it doesn't change a single thing.... everything that once seemed like a dream, has facade, and now, i'm being bounced back to reality. One thing, I know is I've taught you to love. I taught you to cherish and in return you showed me how you felt, how he felt, and we both learnt something didn't we? Tell me now : Can we continue going on this way? Or should we both let go? I know very well myself, that is I won't let go.
Cherish.
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