I've been thinking lately... why do I feel like I've got nothing to do? It's like my life has something missing, for the very first time, I had nothing to do. It felt like I was trouble free, like I was happy, as if I was on cloud nine. But the sad thing here was, I realized that I have had been hiding and running away from all my problems. I have been avoiding them, and I thought by doing so it'll at least go away, but instead of letting it shrink, I guess things took a little for the worst. I want to state them all out here, but if I do, I guess only a week's post is then sufficient to list it all out. There's just way too many of them for me to even think about it.
It's like even if it's not your problem, your friend shares it with you so it then becomes part of your problem. And you can't possibly not care, because you already know about it. So you have your own problems, then people starts adding them to you. Your head gets bigger, and it feels like bursting. Just like mine. I feel... my head pounding so vigorously.
The most recent one that has been going around is about... them. I find the quarrels and conflicts redundant. All these can be avoided. Like hello. What has people's relationship got the fuck to do with you guys? Number 1, did they ask for your opinions? Well, hell no. Get some common sense in your heads. And I seriously think you guys have no rights to judge him, not a single bit. He might be a jerk, but I don't think it concerns any of you, well does it? He doesn't treat her good, maybe because of how she clings on or something right? He... is a nice guy to me, he treats me nice. Tell me, is he bad, or good? You can't judge someone just because your friend says that he is bad. You have to experience it yourself. Because different people treat different people differently. At first, I had major issues with her with the new guy she's with, I gave her all the advices I could and if that's her decision, I got no rights to stop her, because that's her life. Who am I to control it? Ain't taking any sides, I just can't stand the fucking way you guys judge people. Just... stop it. We, can help in problems, and not to make it bigger, understand? He is not close to me or anything, but I think at least he's nice. So to those speaking ill of him, just siding the girl, then well fuck you in the face.
Ugh... there's just so many more. Especially my own... I'm at loss. I don't know what I should do. Yesterday, I couldn't sleep... so I randomly drew a mind map and linked my troubles. There's so many... And, I hope I will be able to sleep today. I slept at around 3plus, and I woke up up to 7 times. Eventually couldn't take it so I woke up at 8. Early morning.... :/ Sorry for being so boring and all in my recent posts. I will try to brace myself.
Okay, enough whining for today, just have one last little thing to say : Youuuuu. Wait for me. I know you will. Remember that the stars will always shine, and the wind is constantly blowing. The sun will always shine on to you and even if it isn't, it will always rain. At least only we know what this is right...
Love,
Unknown Blogger Xx
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