To love at all is to be vulnerable

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”

- C.S Lewis


Been constantly remind myself, the fact in that to love at all is to be vulnerable. I do not like to be vulnerable. But sometimes, I can't help but have hopes. But hopes lead to disappointment. So I can only take the above quote to always remind myself how I should never truly love anyone; because I wish to keep my heart intact. Maybe before, it becomes unbreakable, impenetrable or even irredeemable, I could find someone I am willing to turn vulnerable for. There's no issue, I'm not sad or anything, I'm just sharing, my recalcitrant act of putting hopes on things I know will never work out and end up disappointing myself.