Always so insecure, so full of assumptions and lack of courage when it comes to the one I really fancy. Like okay, someone likes me and I probably act all whatever like I'm the best. But when it comes to someone I really like, I'm like a tortoise hiding in a shell.
...always insecure: that I'm not pretty enough for him, that I'm too fat for him, that his girl friends surrounding him are prettier, why would he choose me?
...always full of assumptions: that he will never like me as I do him, that he definitely has someone else he is going for, that he thinks me weird, that I'm not his kind of girl, that he will not like me for who I really am if he knew the real me, that I could never be what he wants me to be.
...always lack of courage: to tell someone that I like them. I'm not the kind that would wait for weeks, be friends and slowly be closer to you and then tell you I like you. I mostly just drop a bomb shell that ya, I have feelings for you (no matter how short a time I've known you). But for the guys that I am just crazy for their looks, I instantaneously confess my feelings; which surprisingly has a 8/10 returns (lol) but okay then I don't really like them. It's the guy that I really have feelings for but I lack the courage to ever let him know what I feel.
Why would you ever choose a daisy in a field of roses???
But okay, then I decide that if I lack courage AND seeing that he doesn't like me (assuming again but seriously idk what else to say), I will stop keeping hopes for him that he will ever notice my feelings. I will, move on. And this will be the last I have to say of him. :(!!!
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