To my one and only boy, who truly cared for me. Through my days of unhappiness and blissful times. I am really sorry. It's funny how close to 7 months just flew past like this. And seeing you for the first time turning into the last. I was captivated by your looks the first time I met you, your smile. Your first impression after we talked wasn't the ultimate best, I never knew why but I started disliking you. Whenever I saw you came over, all I told HY was how much I hated you, funny how all these seems so childish right now. But soon after, I never knew why but when we started talking more, I felt like you were a really nice guy. What got me was the time we had lunch for the first time, and when you told me that you'd be enlisted today. It felt like time was running out. Everyone was constantly making love jokes about both of us, and maybe that's how it caused an illusion over me, of what I feel for you. Maybe I thought I fell for you, but maybe it was only just an infatuation.
Dates with you were always great. You were a gentleman, and you never fail to drive me home after every date. What we had was brief but you truly cared. Only that you never said it out, your actions were clear but you never wanted to say it, that you had grew feelings for me. I was sad when you neglected me, but I was partly glad because I could see what it was like to be without you.
I find it a cruel joke for you, because the very moment you neglected me was when he came back into my life. I had a new sense of direction, a direction I knew I always had. And so, I started being cold to you. I am sorry, this is all I could offer, nothing more, nothing less. But you gotta know, it hurts me just the same, because I know you really tried hard for me... amongst all the girls you could have, you picked me but at the end of the day... I disappointed you.
I don't think it's very wise of me, to now be going for someone whom I don't even know if he's real this time and give up someone whom I actually felt something for. But with him in the picture, I really don't see how things between us can work out anymore. I'm sorry I can't tell you all these reasons in person or by text, I don't want you to feel that you should have tried even harder. I really think that between us, it's just the wrong time, wrong place.
It sucks to be receiving this, and no one wants to hear this, but "You deserve someone better than me"
I loved you J, you had me; but you let me slipped away.
