More than your love,

Very happy to find myself here blogging, I can't believe I'm blogging for consecutive days. Afterall, Term 3 has started... But, I guess it's because I don't have homework, and I don't want to stress myself too much with revision yet. Yesterday night... I don't know what came to me and they just rolled down like how a sudden rainstorm would arrive. And the funniest thing was the first thing I grabbed on to was babybear, my latest toy. I hugged it so hard, and the cutest thing was the first person I thought off was you. Thanks so much yesterday, I know it's just a text you sent but it meant alot to me, I've said how grateful I am today in my text but I just want to let my diary here know you're the best person ever here for me. I promise I won't be sad anymore.

Meet babybear!


Today... it rained rather heavily in the morning... no? I went down for recess today, it was fun... Like always, I seem to lose contact with the canteen for a very long time. Lessons were interesting I should say but I was very worn out and tired in class and I often catch my ownself dozing off, even just for a second. I'm not getting enough sleep, that is for sure. I should sleep earlier from now on!! Okay, proceeding.... I got to see my baby today, happy maximum. Ha ha ha, he's sooooo very funny and cute, and only I know why. Tsk. Something damn bastard! This drawing would be funny to you if you knew the meaning!! And, there's one more, but it's damn bad, so I posted only this, ha ha. Not by me the drawing*.



Guess what? Tomorrow is.... I hate thursday! Ahhh, it's arriving like sooooo damn fast!! It's already thursday tomorrow? Like oh my goodness, I could even remember clearly the first week of term 3. Time is really catching up on me, I need time......

Regarding my previous post, I've been receiving many questions... First and foremost, this matter is complicated for you all. It's easy to me but hard to explain. To summarize, Irfan is a very very close friend to me. And by the way, I+AM+NOT+JEALOUS+OF+HER. Period.

It was never about me, it was never about her, it was never about she, it was never about I, it was always about U. You have the spot light all over you, and even when you climbed to the highest point having the glam and all, you still want more. Do you ever know when to stop? When we're enjoying and having fun, and you're there being lonely, you'd claim to be one of us and when you join in, stealing the spot light. And when there's trouble, you could even said you were never one of us. What is this supposed to mean? We're your substitute? Think again, if it wasn't for her, I would have long ago, said mean and horrible things to you. But why again, are the people who are helping you the important people to me? Just so you know, it's because of them I'm nice. I don't like being nice, but once I'm nice, you get too comfortable and start climbing all over me. Topics on you can go on and on therefore I'd summarize it here: You're nothing but a small fly to me, one slap to you and you're gone.



Okay, that was bad. Karma is coming to very soon, bad deeds are increasing!! I'm really very tired now, I wanna take a rest. I'm really shag. Ugh!!! baby, I miss you soooo much even I saw you less than 2 hours ago!! Forever, you'll be etched in my heart. *hearts*

When I was young.. Ha ha.


p/s: ncsh, you're not forgotten. heeheee. I feel like posting about youuuu. I miss you too very much. I wanna see you everyday!! Thanks thanks thanks again for never failing to be there. You're the sweetest! *hearts*